quote from 3/3/2003 12:02:15 AM:

"lets get this week started. its gonna be kinda busy, but for some reason im expecting it to be relaxing. word."

oh how naive i am.

ok, so i stole this from josh tillman of saxon shore but it's random and therefore funny... puddle of mudd

i wanted to get some sweatpants and wal mart today but couldnt find any i liked. i want to get some nice comfy ones without the elastic at the bottom. i shouldve just bought some and cut the bottoms up. but i didnt. which is just as well cuz i need to save my money so i can do something fun with erica this weekend. but anyway. if you see some nice sweatpants let me know.
raise the roof.

got to talk to erica today, which was nice. it's good to have her back in the same country. and i will see her in less than a week which is wonderful.

we had a haiti meeting tonight. we've gotten around 50% of our money which is great. im getting pretty excited..although i think we are all kind of naive as far as what it's gonna be like. we found out tonight that they use a generator a couple times a day...and theres no electric besides that. so once its dark, its dark. things like that, the tiny plane we're taking, and all kinds of stuff will make it an adventurous trip.

lets get this week started. its gonna be kinda busy, but for some reason im expecting it to be relaxing. word.

erica comes home from africa today...wahoo!

titus 3:3-5 At one time we too were foolish, disobedient, deceived and enslaved by all kinds of passions and pleasures. We lived in malice and envy, being hated and hating one another. But when the kindness and love of God our Savior appeared, he saved us, not because of righteous things we had done, but because of his mercy.

how often christians turn up their noses in self righteousness, condemning those they see as immoral, all the while forgetting what they once were like, or even forgetting what they are like presently. the only difference between these immoral people and these christians is the grace of god. hypocrisy is a cancer eating away at the church, destroying its light and witness. this isnt a call to accept and condone immorality, but rather a call to reach out to those people in love and compassion just as christ reached out to us in love. a call to get to know them and reach them on their level. a call to show the grace that has been shown to us.

hmm.

+Not even those who are circumcised obey the law, yet they want you to be circumcised that they may boast about your flesh. May I never boast except in the cross of our Lord Jesus Christ, through which the world has been crucified to me, and I to the world. Neither circumcision nor uncircumcision means anything; what counts is a new creation. gal. six.
+For it is by grace you have been saved, through faith--and this not from yourselves, it is the gift of God-- not by works, so that no one can boast. For we are God's workmanship, created in Christ Jesus to do good works, which God prepared in advance for us to do. eph. two.
+Where, then, is boasting? It is excluded. On what principle? On that of observing the law? No, but on that of faith. For we maintain that a man is justified by faith apart from observing the law. rom. three.

it was a good day.
jamin and i worked out. but dont tell anyone.
we ate lunch.
i sat around.
went to the basketball game. we heckled marian with all that was within us. the refs were bad. marian was cocky. luckily they were terrible in the second half. we hit a 3 to tie it and send it to overtime. we dominated and won by 6. going to the championship. unfortunately i dont think i can go.
i ate dinner.
went to su's show. absolutely incredible. i am humbled to call him my friend and be involved with his work. i am truly blessed.
watched royal tennenbaums. took a nap in the middle of it, but other than that, enjoyable as usual. (thank you jamin.)
tomorrow i will be going to church for the first time in a while which will be nice. i miss muncie alliance.
i love you all.
thank you, goodnight.

It is a basis for your heartfelt hunger so gaze at the page at the faces of nameless...
You're alone again and this distortion is an apt replacement for an unquenchable desire for more
more pages strewn across this sickening floor
I can't look at any of this
Oh how her heart it would bleed
If she only knew those abusive roots
And how the children would weep
If they only saw what those eyes have seen
It always keeps us longer than we wanted to stay
It always takes us further than we wanted to go
But you don't seem to mind at the time
Innocence. . .sold out to. . .addiction
It's inside you and your soul is longing, yearning
Pleading to be set free
Within our eyes there could never be a more complete perversion of what we were meant to be
And with all that is in me I hate this
As we're sinking inside this ever-feeding illness
We are all quite silent
Sitting still

(project 86)

so dale and the boyz move to the big apple tomorrow. id be lying if i said i wasnt worried about him/them. but i wish them the best of luck. whatever that means.

god is totally looking out for me and thats pretty nice of him. i prayed last night that he would get rid of my overnights tonight. lo and behold, one kid didnt show up, and another decided to go home. so i was able to go over to kileighs with nate and jamin which was fun.
jamin and i might be working out tomorrow morning. we're such studs. playoff game at 3. su's art show at 6. should be a fairly fun day.
this is a much needed weekend.