So we're in the process of moving. If you only keep tabs via this blog, you might not know the full story. Erica's parents purchased a foreclosure in the next town over. Ton of space, price was right, but ridiculously laid out. They completed gutted it, reconfigured things, and Erica's has been doing most of the work bit by bit for a few months now.
The plan is: we move in and rent from Erica's parents until we leave. Why bring the chaos of a move into our lives? I'm not completely sure, really, but it will put Erica maybe 20 minute closer to work, which will help. It will put in the same town as our church, making us more a part of the community and allowing us to host a high school Bible study in what we've been calling "the big room." And it doesn't sound like much but it's probably the biggest perk: a dishwasher and washing machine.
So, the house isn't exactly finished, but we've told our landlord we'll be out before November 1st. That makes for a crazy few weeks, packing up, moving, getting settled in an unfinished house, creating Halloween costumes, and preparing to host a band in "the big room" on the 31st, and in the meantime not forgetting about full-time jobs and graduate homework.
We just started packing up a few days ago, and that's when it started to hit me. I don't really want to move. I don't like moving. This is home. I like it here. It'd be easier to stay. I hate the look of empty cupboards. And all the while the obvious thought is ringing in my head: we have to do this again, in a much more extreme fashion, next year!
But why is it, I wonder, that all of our favorite movies feature road trips? What is it about long journeys and the simplicity of owning nothing except what can fit on your back or in your car that we're so enamored with? Is it just the irresponsibility we're so taken by? Or just the good music? Or do we cope with the labor of moving by constantly moving, so that we never have to face the side effects of uprooting? And why do we admire the people who move away from home and scoff at the people who live in the same town all their lives?
Surely some people are more able to handle moving than others, but I'm just wondering, are we really meant to move? Sure, staying put allows you to accumulate STUFF all too easily, which is what I'm hating most right now, and that might be one of the best arguments for never sticking around long enough. But things like relationship...community...fellowship...and even to a certain extent responsibility and commitment and loyalty and hard work...I believe we're wired for them. Can they be attained when you're moving? Sure, people on road trips experience all sorts of wondrous things, but what are they missing? I'm beginning to think we're wired for home.
OK, I can admit it, I'm thinking too hard and getting a bit melodramatic. And this type of stuck-in-the-mud thinking is what makes me boring, what makes the counselor we've visited say I'm the brake pedal and Erica's the gas. But I'm just thinking that when we worship the people who leave home or refuse to have one, we've got things just a bit out of balance, no?
And maybe it's moreso the fact that most couples can't wait to leave their first home; the inconvenient hole-in-the-wall with all sorts of horror stories that have been endured simply for the cheap rent. We've lucked out for the past four years with cheap rent and plenty of quaint space to host our friends. That's not easy to leave, at least not right now.
Don't worry, I'm excited to go to France. But I'm mostly interested in making France home as soon as possible.