the break was really wonderful. i giggled wayyy too much and it felt good. i got to show my friends off to my family and they approved, and i got to show off my family to my friends and they also approved. it was a fun time.
something is wrong with my car's muffler and that's a pain. one more thing to work on and take care of in the next few weeks.
work is staring me in the face now and the pressure is on. we'll see how i hold up. his week's a busy one with nostalgia night and i'm gone this weekend, so not a whole lot will be accomplished still this week.
feeling a little frustrated tonight. we've all been programmed and conditioned to think that scripture reading and prayer is the one and only sign of a healthy relationship with god. i'll agree it's the main way to have a growing relationship with god and it is incredibly important. but i think we often take that to the next level and decide that if we arent reading and praying we're not walking closely with god. maybe we arent? i dont know. its hard to explain what im thinking at the moment. i do know that in the past, the primary thing i've beaten myself up about (forgetting god's grace) is reading my bible and praying...where if i'm not doing either i think i'm on bad terms with god and he's pretty bummed with me until i finally start picking up and digging in again...i equate these things with being on good terms with god, and that's dangerous. i guess there's a fine line that i can't find and no matter where it's located i'm still gonna struggle with picking up my bible every day and consciously talking with god on a regular basis.
it has become one of those nights.