i've never been someone who has a lot of regrets. i know there have always been reasons (both good and bad) behind what i've done, and everything i've done has unfolded for some sort of purpose in my life. having regrets will just complicate matters...what's done is done, and there's not much use beating myself up about it now.
but there is one thing i end up regretting time and time again. i always end up wishing i would have invested more time in certain people. i regret not speaking up when i should have...not asking questions for fear of an awkward conversation...not asking that person to go out for coffee beacuse i thought there was never a good time...coming up with excuses to keep my mouth shut and hiding within my comfort zone instead of taking the time to be intentional and engage in meaningful conversation with someone. i look back knowing we both would have benefited so much, and i'm puzzled as to why i didn't make more of an effort.
i definitely don't regret not studying more...cuz my grades wouldn't have improved much more and i definitely wouldn't have remembered any more of the subject matter anyway. but i regret not talking.
so to you, you, you, and you...and you, too...for whatever reason, i was too scared to take the time to invest in you, and now i wish i knew you better. there are very few things i regret more.
im sorry.